De-Boarding the Hot Mess Express: Step 1. Admit you have a problem.

3 Mar

Have you ever felt “lost” in your life? Like, nothing is going totally wrong… but it’s just not completely right. Maybe you’re still 10 lbs. away from your “goal weight,” just like you’ve been for the past 7 years.

Or perhaps you’re still working at that desk job, you know, the one you started 5 years ago to “have some income coming in while you figured out your dream job.”

Is your spare bedroom/basement STILL covered in piles (more like MOUNTAINS) of CRAP that you “are going to go through one of these days”?! Do you have canned food from 2014* in your cabinets? Do you have shirts in your closet that you haven’t worn since you were in college?

Do you fail to wash your face and/or floss every night, even though you know darn well that you should and you know it only takes like 2 extra minutes in your night but you still fail at doing it BECAUSE YOU ARE A HUGE GIANT MESS OF A BEING THAT CAN’T EVEN WASH HER FREAKING FACE?!?!?!?!?**

If reading this gives you anxiety because you can’t imagine such an unorganized person, you might just want to slowly back away and delete this blog from your browser history.

If you can relate to some (or all…) of the above-mentioned chaos, you’re in good company. This is the place for you. My goal is to use this space to add some thoughtful intention and direction to my life. To set goals, create action plans and actually start to become the powerful, purposeful, dream-weaving, goal-crushing, successful, living-up-to-my-fullest-potential, M-er F-ing BADASS woman that I know I am!!!

And hopefully as I get my life together more and more, YOU, my fellow disaster, will be inspired to take some steps towards your best YOU! It’s time to make some changes. It’s time to feel better and be better. It’s time to make the most out of this one life you are given. ARE YOU WITH ME?!?!?!

Okay, so now comes the super sexy*** part of the blog… I’m going to list out the areas of my life that I want to focus on improving. I’ve chosen to focus on these topics not because of any outside forces or influences, but because I feel like I’d genuinely improve the quality of my whole life by making small improvements in these topics. By no means do I think that EVERYONE needs to focus on all of these topics. I repeat. I DO NOT THINK YOU ARE A LESSER OF A PERSON IF YOU DON’T HAVE THE SAME PRIORITIES AS ME. I also do not think that YOU are lesser of a person if you also struggle with these same areas in your life (but don’t want to change). You do you. All I’m saying is that I know that I will feel like a better, more productive human being if I’m kickin’ ass and takin’ names in these areas. So that’s that.

I’ll list out my “areas of improvement”**** and a brief description of my end goal. I truly believe that in order to make any changes, you have to have clear goals in mind. For instance, of course I want to “make more money” but if I have more specific goals, like, “pay off my student loans in the next 5 years” then I must have detailed steps to get there. I’m not just “making more money” and hoping I’ll be excited about that. Are you with me?

After I dump all of my garbage here on you***** then my goal is to set smaller goals with action plans and write about those in this blog. I know the steps will seem small and slow, but those will all add up to some big change in my life, I just know it.******

And here we go… The Grand List of All Lists!!

  1. Home: Cleaning and Organizing Goals
    • Why: When the house is clean and organized, I just feel better and more “put together” as a human being.
      • I spend less money on stuff we already have (like canned goods or cleaning supplies) when cabinets are maintained and organized.
      • I don’t have to spend hours cleaning the house when we have guests over.
      • If everything stays maintained, deep cleaning is easier to maintain.
      • I also want to reduce the chemical toxins from cleaning supplies for our health.
    • Create and maintain a weekly cleaning list (I already essentially do this)
    • Create a monthly deep clean/organize schedule (like baseboards, kitchen pantry, freezer, clothes/closets, etc.)
    • Switch to environmentally friendly cleaning products
  2. Goals to Impact the World
    • Why: Right now I do a really crappy job of protecting the environment and giving back, and I know that’s selfish and awful and I want to do better.
    • Focus on recycling as much as possible.
    • Find a regular place to volunteer.
  3. Financial Goals
    • Why: It’s disgusting and overwhelming how much I have in student loan debt right now. It’s also frustrating (to me) to not be able to contribute more to our household and our adventures.
    • Create a monthly spending budget (and actually follow it!) and create a travel budget/fund.
    • Set career goals to influence budget goals!
  4. Career Goals
    • Why: I added a LOT more debt onto my already massive pile of debt to pursue my dream of going to culinary school and it was totally amazing… and now I cook super-duper-uper part time. So dumb.
    • Create a business plan(s) with weekly action plans/goals.
    • Create financial goals with action plans.
  5. Self Goals
    • Why: I’ve felt frumpy, grumpy and gross, and I know my attitude for everything in the world reflects all of that. If I want to be the best version of “me” AND if I want to take care of anyone else, I know I have to take care of myself first. And why wouldn’t I want to feel as good as I can possibly feel EVERY SINGLE DAY?!?
    • Physical goals: Set weight loss/measurement goals. Create menu plans and do weekly food prep. Set exercise goals.
    • More physical goals: Set skin care/teeth routine. Set supplement routine.
    • Emotional goals: Set aside times for self development with books and/or coaches. Explore churches to attend.
    • Chemical goals: Reduce the harsh chemical load in cosmetics/soaps/food

So that’s it. You might be thinking, “Gee, Laura, that’s a giant list of, like, all of the things you do in your life. You sure have a lot of work to do to get your life together.”

Well, yes. You’re right. But I’m not going to let it stop me. I’m not going to let it overwhelm me. I’m not going to say I have to perfectly execute all of the things of this list to have a perfect life. That’s not what this is about. This is about being honest with who I am, being honest with who I theoretically want to be, and exploring how I can find some common grounds somewhere in the middle and feel proud of the person I am. Because at this moment, I don’t feel proud. I feel like the weekends go by too fast… then I look forward to the weekend all week… then I pay some bills… and continue with the cycle. That’s not what I want for myself or for my husband or for our future family (NO I AM NOT PREGNANT.)

That’s all I’ve got for today because that was A LOT! I’ll probably sprinkle these posts with recipes and dog pictures and other fun motivational stuff too, so be sure to follow along and remind me that I’m not the only passenger on the “hot mess express”.



(If you didn’t look down here throughout the text when you read a superscript number, you may have missed a lil “somethin’-somethin'”. It’s never THAT important.. sometimes just funny little note.)

* It always grosses me out when I find expired canned food in my cabinet… You know that stuff has like a 5 year expiration date.. so that can of corn that expired in 2012 was probably produce and maybe purchased in 2007. Sick.

**I’m fully aware that I write my blog without following proper grammar rules. My favorite is using run-on sentences galore because I want people to read this as though I’m talking to them and sometimes I don’t pause when I am really excited/passionate about something! And I like starting sentences with “and.”


****Disaster areas of my life.

*****And you, without a doubt, judge me for being a big ol’ loser…

******If you know me, I know what you’re thinking. You’ve heard this from me before. I’m going to make some big changes! I’m going to conquer the world! Perhaps you stopped believing me since I’ve said it so many times… but how sad would the world be if everyone gave up on their hopes and dreams if they didn’t achieve them the first (or second or third) time around?

2 Responses to “De-Boarding the Hot Mess Express: Step 1. Admit you have a problem.”

  1. Steve March 3, 2018 at 5:00 pm #

    Glad your back to writing! Great job 🙂

  2. MamaSaar March 3, 2018 at 6:44 pm #

    She’s baaaaack! I have always enjoyed your blogs. Your list includes many goals that dance around in my own mind. I look forward to reading your blog! I AM after all, one of your biggest cheerleaders!

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